Friday, January 27, 2012

Precious Little One



It seems that this little baby is well on its way- and I cannot wait! My pregnancy has hit its stride. No more hyperemesis or placenta bleeding scares. Lots of growth and kicking abounds now, with some serious cravings. All told,  sometime between mid April and early May- this little one will enter our lives. I can't help but get excited since I have only two full months left until we meet him or her. 

With that added peace, I have been able to reflect on how unique this little one and its pregnancy has been. We feel so immensely blessed to welcome another precious child into this world as well as to be pregnant. Having experienced loss, I am reticent to complain about being pregnant. Children, in our view, are blessings. Pure and simple. They're lots of work yes, but the way in which our children have blessed and enriched our lives only affirm and strengthen this view. Plus I am up for the task. I am honestly not daunted one bit by another child. I got all my fretting out when I had Jonas. I can do this, and God made me for this. 

I also really think a mother's 'glow' comes from her joy for the little life inside of her. 
Who could keep that in?

 I also believe this makes it equally hard when others- especially family- don't share in your joy and try to rob you of it. As this baby through the years grows into a child, I can honestly say it will be hard to just forget negative family attitudes. It also, to me at least, seems extremely patronizing and dehumanizing when others' try to chalk up your feelings to being sensitive and pregnant. My moral compass and reasoning did not leave my body when I became pregnant.

I can only journal and pray about my hurt so much before well I accept it for what it is- selfishness. I don't need people to be happy for us if they can't be, but they can keep the negativity to themselves. I used to be a very blunt person and that changed along then line somewhere. However I think I might bring it back some and just shut down what I call "diarrhea of the mouth" before it crops up. Not in a nasty way, but in a matter of fact way. 

So I suppose that all in all, I resolve to not let anyone rob me or my family of our God-given joy. I also resolve to not be a doormat. Our sweet baby will be welcomed into this world surrounding by love. If some family and friends won't be part of our loving village- then please leave. 

I considered making this blog private but I won't. This isn't an attack, it is just how I feel. I choose to be open about this, because I know I am not the only mother who has felt this way before. All life should be celebrated.

Maybe this will just remind us all to be loving to one another as well. 

Thankfully you all, my dear blog friends, are quite nice. I really appreciate that. I do have a large supportive and happy village as well. I am so blessed to have them. Many pages in my journal are filled with praises for my village. Many more pages of happiness than hurt. For that I am thankful. 

Who could not love this baby!






22 comments:

  1. You look wonderful Nicole, simply joyous :-) and why wouldn't you be!

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    1. Having troubles commenting in the right way again! You look so beautiful! Wishing you a joyous rest of pregnancy and joyous always! Such a special, sacred time which should be celebrated always and held as a special and as a precious gift. So sorry you have had a hard time.

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    2. I am so sorry that you're having trouble commenting- boo :( I will look into it but I am not tech savy. Thank you so much for your kind words. They mean so much. And for being a persistent commentor!

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  2. Sorry that you aren't getting all of the love and support you deserve...and your sweet baby deserves as well.

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    1. Thank you Maria :) I hope you're pregnancy is going well too! So happy for you!

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    2. Thank you. This pregnancy is going well, although the heartbreak of previous miscarriages kept us somber and scared at first. Thankfully we are well into the safety zone now and can really feel confident that we will get to meet this one here on earth.

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  3. This is Maria's Mom... your baby is beautiful!

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  4. You look wonderful, mama! I'm sorry you haven't been receiving the support that you deserve. IT's unfortunate when others feel they have the right to intrude on your happiness.

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  5. Oh sweetie, love love love that belly of yours! You are glowing and gorgeous as you should be. Sorry that you seem to be having a hard time w/ friends/family...it all can be overwhelming at times I know. Too many people today miss out on the true joy of pregnancy and childbirth! It breaks my heart to hear so many complain. Sure there is a tough road for some, but what an amazing gift. Here's to a wonderful rest of your pregnancy and a joyous birth experience!

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    1. Thanks Angie! I agree, what a precious gift that should be celebrated! In the end, it is their loss. Thank you for your love and support... ALL of you!

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  6. How exciting that your precious little one will arrive this spring!! You do look lovely and joyful with your pregnancy glow :) Thank you for sharing your pictures, children are such a joyful blessing!!

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  7. You look fantastic! I hope you won't let others bring you down. Pregnancy and children are true miracles and shouldn't be taken for granted. You are blessed. Thank you for sharing such a wonderful message with us on Monday Madness.

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  8. Talk about **GLOW** Mama cause you've got it!!
    I totally understand where you are coming from with the negative comments, mine started coming when we wanted more then the average 2.1 children, especially when the doc "recommended" not having anymore children after my second because I already had 2 c-sections. We just ignored the comments and pressed on and just like you we knew that God already had a plan for our family!! Here we are getting ready for our 4th and planning our second VBAC.
    Congrats mama you look like your in a total state of bliss:)
    P.S. Your dimples are adorable did you pass that character trait onto your kiddo's??

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    1. Thank you :) My kids both got my dimples actually! I am so happy that you were able to go for 2 VBACs. What blessings you little ones- and all children are! I really don't understand why other's feel the need to comment on our family choices and size. But as I am learning, there are more supportive and positive people out there than negative ones :) I am glad that I shared.

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  9. So nice to see the face behind the blog! What a wonderful picture of you and your baby on the way! You look so beautiful! I am happy for you and glad that your pregnancy is going well. Your words really touched me and I think you are absolutely right to enjoy every precious moment of this true blessing by surrounding yourself with as much positive energy as possible (and leaving the negative aside). It is the most wonderful gift from life, nature and God (for those who believe) to be able to welcome a child into the world. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with such honesty.

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    1. Thank you Sarah! It is fun to see what we look like since we only see each other through the words of our blogs. Thank you for your love and support. Getting comments like yours make me happy that I shared how I truly felt. Hugs!

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  10. Congratulations, beautiful mama!!!!

    I found that as I made choices that were not in keeping with the norm (several children, midwife care, homebirthing, babywearing etc.)it appeared to threaten some people, seemingly because it was different from *their* choices. I always found that curious. And I had a bit of subversive fun coming up with responses that would completely throw the nay-sayers off. My fave was telling people who asked why I was having a fifth child that I was trying for a red-head. They would laugh, uncertainly.

    Your baby is beautiful. And clearly so loved.

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