Sick Babies and No Sleep

I do not have the energy to blog tonight. I was going to write about our family's Eco-friendly and Waldorf journey, but I seriously am about to pass out.

Jonas is sick -or- he is teething so badly that he is making himself sick. My heart literally shatters into pieces when my children are hurt or sick. It is even worse when I cannot make it better, and that is where Jonas is tonight (and has been for 2 days now).

So I am going to try to sleep while he is asleep for the first time in more than 24 hours. However I must say that even though I am cranky, tired, and weary as well- I would not trade this for the world. Never.

Also let me just put this out here but this does not make me want to never have anymore children either. It really unnerves when people say this to me when my children act like well...children. Each child is different, a glorious gift, and a blessing all their own. I mean I am not always pleasant to be around, heck I am downright mean when I am sick. Why should I expect a child who just leaned to speak, to act more pleasantly than a grown man when they are sick? Shesssh. (Can you tell that I am weary?)

At any rate, I covet your prayers tonight. Pray for us and for wisdom. We are going to the doctor's tomorrow to see what this might be and hopefully get some answers! In the meantime enjoy some newborn Jonas photos.

Bonne Nuit!

::right now::

::right now:: A weekly Soulemama tradition. 

right now, I am ...

:: marveling that it is almost July. One month until we move into our new home. One month, one month...

:: revisiting memories of my summer pregnancies as I rejoice with my sister and brother (in law- but I'll keep them) about their new little life that will be a girl. Their daughter. My niece. The cousin of my children. 

:: plotting plans for our new home. New rooms and places of love and refugee. And yet I still realize that its not about the new 'things' we have but the love and memories that we will share there- which is what really matters. 

:: finishing the old toys round-up and purge. The twinge of mothering guilt stings less and less each day as I discover that my children do not miss them and are better for it. 

:: stopping myself from running off and spending the new money on lots of new toys, instead getting one heirloom toy , table, bedset, and a rug! 

:: wondering if the baby bluejay that adopted me this evening will make it through the night. Shalom. What will be, will be... by God's grace. 

:: loving my sweet precious daughter whom came home early at 10pm tonight from her overnight stay with Omi because she "missed me and daddy and babyey Jonas Bonus". As I tucked her into bed and gave her lion kisses with my arms wrapped around her, she told me that "this feels much better, this is the right place to be". Oh dear heart and soul be still and savor this. Breath her life in and keep this moment forever. 

:: listening to the cicadas hum. Ah yes this is the song of summer. 

:: thanking the Lord for providing us with a free bed and mattress for my baby Emil Jonas, who is moving into his big bed in a months time. Thank you Nicole Carroll. You and your family are blessings from the Lord to us and our church. 

::weeping as I realize my baby Jonas isn't a baby anymore. They're tears of mixed emotions. Happiness that he is experiencing new parts of God's world. Sadness because of my realization that he will never need me as much as he once did anymore. And immense all encompassing gratitude that the Lord has given me such a beautiful gift, deemed me worthy to receive it, and kept him from harm thus far. 

:: feeling very connected to the needs of my family right now. Mommy needs to hold a bit more this week and clean a bit less. 

:: loving my daughter's heart for those in need. She still prays every night for her friend with CF and his Mommy. 

:: hoping that she keeps her sweet caring spirit with her all her life. 

:: wanting to go back to my mother's house and to the beach. I love the beach. The ocean is just what I needed this weekend! 

:: thinking about the fun musical time we get to have with family tomorrow night- and wishing Craig could be there! 

:: reminding myself that this period is a part of my God's perfect plan and is purposeful. 

:: making lovely home school plans for the Autumn...while I drink more lemonade! 

:: wishing you a lovely summer's eve and a beautiful start to your weekend!  

Sleeping. The poor baby was tired. I must have the touch! 

The silicone dishware giveaway I own, love the MightyNest! 

Spoonflower fabric that I designed and had print. Yep, I am a fabric designer ;) 

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Tree of Life and Wine

Tonight was another date night- since it is the only day off my husband has fully had in 14 days. So instead of going on our normal coffee and movie date, we went to Norfolk. In Norfolk there is this awesome indie film theater called the Naro. It has been around since the 1920s and they have saved it and restored the theater back to its 20s glory.  


So on a whim we went to see the film "Tree of Life". I loved the movie, it was touching, beautiful, gripping, and makes you relive parts of your childhood while watching the film. If you're a believer it takes you through the existential quandaries we as believers experience when we suffer a deep loss. When we question God's goodness- or if he is even there. 


So I loved it. Craig not so much. He thought it was pretentious! Que sera, sera! 


So now I have had my glass of wine, and Craig is giving me "that look". So I will bid you adieu with promises of crafty goodness and updates tomorrow! 

Daily Verse or Quote: 

 Job 38 4-7 

“Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?

Tell me, if you understand.

Who marked off its dimensions? 

Surely you know!    

Who stretched a measuring line across it?

 On what were its footings set, or who laid its cornerstone— 

while the morning stars sang together and all the angels^[a] shouted for joy?

Weekending: Kimono

The PJs

This weekend has been filled with busyness, love, sun, and joy. Friday I got to have some great sewing time with my mother-in-law, whom helped me make my way through the Oliver and S storytime kimono pajamas! The pattern was easy once I had someone help me through it and translate the lingo for me. The pattern had us do the sleeves a new way- which now I really like since they're much easier than the previous ways I had done them. Once I am done with my other projects (Red Ridinghood cape, log cabin quilt, quilt bindings) I will make some more for the kids. 

Saturday was a glorious day at the beach with my mother and the kids. Everyone got along and the kids loved the ocean. Plus I have been craving the ocean- literally. The ocean was such a staple of my childhood and teen years. Most of my happy memories involve the ocean in one way or another. And being able to share that love and connection with my kids is subliminal. 


So.... we went back today! Deirdre spent the weekend with Grandma Cindy and so instead of having my mom drop her off at our house, Jonas and I went down to the beach with them and then home (Craig was working a double). Again is was another great day and I even got to take Deirdre body boarding! 


Sunday was also a great day! I had my first log cabin quilting class at Bella Fabrics in Carollton! Ah I am so in love with the log cabin design, I am so excited to get cracking! 


So needless to say I am full, tired, and excited for this week. How was your weekend? 

My favorite thrift find

So excited for her Huffalump PJs

{this moment}

{this moment} - A Friday ritual created by Amanda Blake Soule. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week (or month- and sometimes for me whats on your mind at the end of the week) A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

If you're inspired to do the same, leave a link to your 'moment' in the comments for all to find and see.

Have a lovely weekend!

Wine and Date Night

Cocoon baby at the Living Museum

Finally, despite being called in for two hours on his only day off in 11 days, we had family time. Sweet, pure, blissful family time. Not rushed nor unappreciated. The day was not prefect, the kids were not on their best behavior, and neither were we! But that is not what we consider a perfect day, just being together and being ourselves unfettered by worry, now that's perfect. 

Today we were all a family. We were fully present and involved. We all connected. And it was worth the eleven day wait. 

To complete the day we also had a sitter come after bedtime so that we could have our 'special' date night. So now I miss bid you adieu, my husband is giving me that look :) 

Ah I love that one oh so much.

No verse or quote tonight.... just sweet photos from our day :) Why don't you share you're own in our comments! 

Butterfly exhibit at the Living Museum. We decided to get our own caterpillars in conjunction with this new exhibit as part of our summer home preschool. 

Loving Dada- Jonas missed him so! Two peas those two are! 

Deirdre told me that the gnomes left these for her as a gift for our compost!

Please Petunia I want a hug! I am your Mommy, not my Mommy! 

A few more years I think Jonas! 

::right now::

Right now, I am... (a tradition birthed by SouleMama aka Amanda Blake Soule)

:: trusting in the Lord about my husband's work and job security. God has always provided for us exactly what we have needed and I need to not doubt that now. 

:: feeling a little helpless to help ease his stress. He works so hard for us and I have no control over how his day at work is. Not to mention I have been feeling a little sick... heat exhaustion probably! 

:: doing a lot of fun stuff with the kids to keep their minds off the fact that they have seen their father for only about 10 hours in the past ten days. 

:: beginning to pack up our home and transplant it in our new home in the next four weeks. Ah the excitement,  sadness, and memories all wrapped up in one this brings. 

:: sewing the finishing touches on Craig's suede apron and beginning pajamas! 

:: knitting (still) the Tomten jacket. Oy! I will not be defeated! 

:: missing my husband. He truly is my other half. Daily life with out him is just not as bright.

:: knowing that this is only a season in life. A quick fleeting season. Nothing more. 

:: wondering what fun things the kids and I can do tomorrow! I think water play of some sort is in order with Omi! 

:: eating much better now that I have a monthly meal plan, huge step forward there!

:: giggling at home since all my animals literally think I am their mother. And how they, like my kids, fight for unnecessarily my attention. 

:: loving my children and all of their new personality quirks. Walks by the fountain are so much fun with them! 

:: continuing to transition my home into a better rhythm amid this moving/working chaos. Good-bye chintzy plastic toys. Ah and yet it is so hard to let go when they cost so so much. Am I depriving my kids...? Stay strong, stay strong! 

:: appreciating the people in my life who help me out and pray for us. (Thanks MK, Chris, and our HG)

:: thanking the Lord for is all. The good and the bad. I am blessed and content. I am at peace. 

:: wishing you a blessed week and peace. 

Jonas had his 15 month check up today and he was a champ!

Daily Quote or Verse: 

Phil 4:6: Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.